From
Last one month, I am searching for a real story of women but not able to find
it just because no one wants to share their dark side publicly, but finally I
got one in my mail…I can say it’s very painful for every girl...
Neena:
Actually, the abuser is none other than my husband. This was a five year old
story. One night, I was cooking and my husband came from his work place and
gave me a cold drink and said that it was a herbal drink and asked to have it.
After taking it, I have started feeding my son but I cloud not, I was feeling
very sleepy. I was surprised that how I am getting sleep very early but I dint
thought much on this and told my husband to feed him since I am going to sleep.
He said “finally it worked” but I didn’t suspected much on his words and went
to sleep.
It’s
the story of Neena (changed name)
I
am writing it in Interview format.
Me: Tell something about your
background..
Neena:
I got married ten years back and having a eight year old son, working for
helping my husband in household expenses... Living in nuclear family…and my son
is studying.
Me: When and how you met abuser?
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| True story of Neena, our intention is to aware people about the girl's life. |
I
went to sleep but I could not sleep. I was having lots of different sensation
in my body; I don’t how to express it with words. I was feeling burning
sensation on my body, my body doesn’t reacts, I can listen to all sounds which
a normal people can’t able to hear. I was feeling like I lost my control over
my body and I have only a mind that can think of it. I have started crying and
my tears were coming out from my eyes but I am not able to open my eyes or wipe
it.
At
that time only, I got that my husband had gave me some drug in that drink and
that’s why he didn’t allowed my son to take it and he also refused to drink and
now his words “finally it worked” were shouting in my ears but I was not able
to understand why he gave it to me.
Suddenly,
he came to me when I was thinking all this and in half sleep. He came, sits
very near to me and started touching me body. He was touching my body in such a
way that it was only a material to use and throw. He started playing with my
body and slowly removing my cloths and started biting my all over, I was crying
but he didn’t given any attention on it. I was shocked with his behavior and not
able think how to react on this. I was not ready for this, suddenly I collect
my all will power and put all strength to move my hands, but I could not.. Then
finally I hold his hair and throw him a side and he went out and thought to
come after some time.
Again
after one hour, he came and tried the same. But this time, I stand up on my
foot, I was not able to walk properly but still I went to a different room and
locked myself. He came there also and started breaking the door and came inside
this time he didn’t wait for my sleep but he started doing the same…again I
went to different room.
Whole
night, he did the same but he didn’t succeed in his aim. Whole night, I was
thinking like that I won’t see the next morning and this is my last night.
Me: How it affects you?
Neena:
I was in a shock and not sure on how to react on my husband's behavior. Should
I fight with him??? Should I say it my parents?? If in case, I want to say this
to them, then how to say it? I was not that much close to my parents, even not
with my mother... I said this to them, they have just scolded him, but didn’t
take any other step. I was emotionally and psychologically disturbed after this
incident. I was not able to talk him properly and asked any question but some
where I felt everything is dead inside me. I stopped talking with my close
friend also.
Me: Have you shared this with anyone?
Neena:
After few days, I have started talking with relatives about this, because I was
broken and I want to share it and have any suggestion and I was not able to
forgive him. Whenever I said this to anyone, they gave me hint that every
husband had all rights to do sex with his wife. I was thinking that he had raped
me but according to our Indian Society this is not a rape…He has right to do
this with me...
Me: Has this affected your romantic relationships? Has
it affected your feelings about trust or sex?
Neena:
Yes it affected our relation, from that day I didn’t went to near him and I
never talked to my husband comfortably. I never trusted him after that. I used
to suspect on him always.
Me: Did you take any legal steps?
Neena:
No, I did not take any legal step because whenever I share this with any one in
relatives, most of them advised me that
somehow and started saying that he has right to do anything. No one is there to
support me at that time. So I have decided to suppress my feelings and make myself
compromised with him to live on the same house, but I could not able to forgive
him. Till now, I am with him but never shared my feelings with him nowadays
since we have too much communication gap.
*****For Reader: Do you know anyone who's been abused?
Any questions or suggestions for Neena?
